Insomnia

I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping since the beginning of this week. Last night marked the third night in a row that I did not toss and turn until the alarm went off. It has been miserable. I know I have  a lot on my plate for this month, but I am not physically anxious about it to the point of worry, but I guess there is an anxiety undercurrent below the surface that has really messed up my system! :C

I think I am just worried I won't be able to sleep once again! Augh that is so stressful. Even with two pills on Monday I couldn't sleep until after 3 and then I overslept because I turned my 6am alarm off and didn't have time to touch up my lesson plans. I still got through, but it was stressful waking at 7:22 and having to be out the door by 7:40 or 7:50! I got to school at 8:15 that day. Horrible!

Here are a list of things that are on my head:

• My students don't speak in class, and I can't get them to. It's getting really awkward.
• K has not come by for my observation, and he gave me a two week window, so that has been two weeks of waiting/stressing/lesson planning craziness to worry about when there is nothing I can do but show up and act normal.
• Summer funding application looming large.
• Second letter for scholarships is not uploaded (yet) (sigh).
• Realized almost too late that the abstract needed for a conference was actually a huge conference proceedings paper (5,000 words) which is kind of difficult to whip up in a week, and I have already spent a lot of time putting together the abstract. Might be able to do this this weekend though.
• My blog readership is lower and lower each day! It makes me sad. I peaked last Thursday on a bad outfit, and I am not sure if this is consistent across a lot of them or what, but I feel really bummed about that. I thought I had found a new focus/outlet. I have had hardly 30 views today. Last week I was having around 100/day. Makes me wonder if I am bad at it! :( I don't look forward to it as much if I know my readers aren't growing. Declining! Sad.
• Need to update my prospectus, but I also need to do that for my GS scholarship plan AND my other research application. So that is a 5-10 page report I need to write up. I am just really whelmed about this because it needs to be convincing and I just don't feel I can whip it up as fast as I would like, and I need to have a prospectus to my committee 2 full months before I take my exams. However, I do interview 2 people this week. Which is good. So maybe I will have something to work with. I think today I will focus on background, users, and studies of Intr.
• Always something else! Augh!

Things I have gotten done this week: (or very recently)

• Set up 2 interviews (one for Wed, one for maybe Fri if she returns my email)
• Developed abstract for one conference
• Finished 13/14ths of my scholarship package for summer funding (last page is hard though)
• Took B to the vet for his rabies booster and regular shots
• Installed my registration sticker on my car windshield and put my new insurance cards in my glove.
• Developed a billion slides for my first presentation ever.
• Finalized my first article and sent it to my adviser for her comments.
• Planned out my second article.
• Started planning out a third article based on my interview and 1st and 2nd article results.
• Double-checked that one of my scholarship letters showed up in the departmental account on Mon.

I know I just need to shut it and go about my work. Sigh. I cleaned a little, that helped some. Maybe getting ready will help to. It is already freaking 1pm.